never was a cornflake girl

Migraine Stuff

2025-10-01T17:51:45Z

( Cutting for migraine medical stuff )

If anyone has any suggestions for dealing with chronic lightheadedness/dizziness/vertigo/nausea, I am very interested in hearing all of them. This is some bullshit and I need as much help as I can get. Thank you in advance. <3

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What the ever-loving fuck

2025-09-25T01:13:32Z

Had an interesting experience just now.

I just got a comment on a fic of mine, accusing me of supporting/proposing "extreme pedophilia" in said story. It's a Captain America, post-CA: Civil War, pre-Infinity War story where all involved characters, in the entire story, are adults.

( Read more... )

The text they're referring to is this:

Steve Rogers has only been able to flirt successfully with a total of two people: both of whom were born before 1925 and both had already decided they liked him before he’d even bothered to try. He’s a goddamn babe in the wilderness.

Basic idea is Steve is trying to pick up the bad guy, for reasons, which is a terrible idea and the above is one of Bucky's thoughts about it.

I don't even know, you guys. I DON'T EVEN KNOW.

Here's a link to the story should anyone want/need any additional context.

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Fandom Empire Bingo Card Masterpost

2025-09-15T01:00:48Z

The Rules

	1	2	3	4	5
B	Superbowl	Loss of Faith	Pride	Clouds	Bedroom
I	Breathtaking	Grandparents	Tears of Rage	Fashion	Bookworm
N	Lover	Month	Things have changed	Keeper	(Carnation) Fascination
G	Timeless	Dystopia	Cold Wave	Moody	Reflection
O	(Willow) Melancholy	Holding Hands	Review	School/College	Exotic

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Ladies Bingo Card - Round 13

2025-09-13T03:38:15Z

I asked for a Ladies Bingo card for this round, let's see if I can get at least one bingo. *fingers crossed* This should help get me over the finish line for Get Your Words Out this year. Woo hoo!

This runs from September 1, 2025 - March 31, 2026, in case anyone else wants to sign up with me.

Autumn	Magical Creatures	Funerals and Wakes	Exhaustion	Soldier, Sailor, Airman: Armed Forces Member
Imprisonment	Temporary Lodgings	Race Against Time	Fruit and Vegetables	Courtship rituals
Light-Hearted	Monochromatic	Wild Card	Something Useful	Epistolary fic: Emails, letters etc.
Second person narration	Unreliable Narrator	Justice	Personal Space	North America (Continent)
Torture	Push and Pull	Someone is Disguised	Hopelessly Devoted	Slice of Life

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Friday - Daphne Blake, International Jewel Thief

2025-09-13T03:30:07Z

1. ( Adventures In Babysitting )

2. ( KPop Demon Hunters Thoughts )

3. ( Sickness Continued )

4. ( Links of the Day )

5. ( Daphne Blake, International Jewel Thief )

Ok, my brain, she is empty and I need to sleep. Please, dear lord, let me sleep!!!

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Tuesday

2025-09-09T15:51:58Z

Good morning!

1. Welp, I have finally caught Bear's cold and I'm down for the count, for the most part. I'm currently vertical and was able to pack Little Bear's lunch for them and got them out the door. I'm sitting in the rocking chair, watching youtube and journaling, which is pretty good. I'm out of frozen breakfast sandwiches I actually want to eat so I had cereal, which I haven't had in a while. I always forget how much a good bowl of cereal can be until I have one, lol.

2. ( Roller Derby )

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Saturday

2025-09-06T23:09:02Z

1. Bear is sick. I think he has the flu but he's one of the worst of those "Man Flu" people. I try to give him a lot of grace, because being sick sucks, but I can't always tell when he's REALLY sick or it's just that he can't handle discomfort. I'm avoiding him in the house, which may not be fair, but so far, I'm not sick *KNOCK ON ALL THE WOOD* and I'd like to keep it that way. We think Little Bear brough home school crud. They've felt unwell on and off for the past few days but not even close to the same level as Bear.

Of course, trying to avoid him means I'm sleeping elsewhere. I'm sharing Little Bear's full sized bed but the mattress super sucks and I haven't slept well. I tried the couch the other night and that sucked because our couch sucks. So, I'm tired, which isn't good for me not getting sick. Ugh.

Pray for us sinners in our hour of need.

2. FIC REC

Just did a fic re-read of a story that's just SO GOOD. I've read it more than a few times but it doesn't matter, it always gets me emotional. Right now, in this dysphoric mania, meant I really cried. The story ends well, which is all that mattered to me if it was going to make me cry, and I'll probably re-read it again before the end of the year.

Title: psalm 40:2
Author: unicornpoe
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Castiel/Dean Winchester
Summary: “How the fuck do you know my name?” Dean hisses.

The man doesn’t look scared. He is watching Dean like there is nothing else worth watching, lips a little parted, eyes a little soft. And blue. Real blue, like the ocean on a postcard.

The ice spreading down Dean’s spine makes him shiver.

“I suppose you could say I’m your guardian angel,” the man murmurs. His breath fogs pale between them. All of him is unnaturally warm, like Dean’s touching somebody with the sun sewn up beneath their skin. “I have known you, Dean Winchester, for a very long time.”

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Dean meets an angel who says he's from the future. It all gets a lot more complicated from there.

Why I'm Rec-ing This: The writing and characterization is beautiful. The concept is unique and I really loved how it was executed. It's heartbreaking in the best way and great for when you need just a LITTLE BIT of a cry, and does have a (mostly) happy ending.

3. ( Mental Health and a Clean House )

4. The cat, after 7 years, has finally decided she wants to be a lap cat. I have spent literal hours in the rocking chair, with her on my lap. It's a good way to take a break from the above cleaning but probably not conducive for more productive organizing/cleaning work. Whatever- I've been waiting for this cat to just want to sit on my lap and now I have it. VICTORY.

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God, I'm bad at this + Countdown, Supernatural, CreationCon

2025-09-05T21:15:42Z

I keep thinking about what I want to post here, and I keep not doing it because it's late, or I'm just on my phone and don't want to type things out with my thumbs (although I do that for AO3 or Goodreads).

I've had lots of THOUGHTS and FEELINGS about everything, including fandom stuff, real life stuff, politics, social justice - EVERYTHING.

I'm going to add "updating Dreamwidth" to my Finch habits/task tracker to make it more in my face and to try to get back into the habit. I don't really have anyone in my real life that I can talk about a lot of these things, or even get it out of my brain, and it's all just festering there.

THAT SAID, HERE WE GO. Braindump ahoy.

( Anyone else watching Countdown? SPOILERS AHEAD )

tl;dr - Countdown was okay to pretty good, esp. as the season went on. I like Jensen on it, I was invested in the story and am hoping it gets renewed. Would love to discuss with people who have also watched the show and have feelings, similar or otherwise.

( Mental Health and Supernatural Bullshit take 1,057,023 )

( CreationCon and Poor Self-Esteem )

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Shows up late, with Starbucks

2023-01-02T22:07:36Z

I had a rough year.

( TW for medical issues and discussion (brief) of depression )

Why H50, you may ask?

rageprufrock decided to join the H50 fandom and wrote an incredible story, On Three, which just blew me away AND resuscitated my love of H50 fandom, fic, and the goddamn show.

I've got a whole dissertation going on how H50 both props up AND works against toxic masculinity.

I've written almost 75K of an AU story around the idea ( spoiler for 5x10, in case anyone else is worried about getting spoiled about a 13 yo show, lolol ) How would that have changed anything?

75 THOUSAND WORDS AND IT'S NOT DONE YET OMG.

I was able to complete NaNo this year due to this monster of a fic (and let me just say, I'm the asshole with two WIPs that haven't been updated in literally YEARS and here I go writing this magnum opus, wtf?) and I'm looking forward to getting it done this year, and posted.

But, man. If you had told me how my year was going to go in January 2022, I would have laughed in your face. Yikes.

Here's to a brighter 2023.

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Dear Yuletide Author... (2019)

2019-11-03T21:57:18Z

Dear Yuletide Writer,

Thank you so much for writing for me this year! It’s been quite a while since I’ve participated and I’m super excited to both write and be written for, and I’m so glad you’re here.

( Let me ramble a bit about the crazy shenanigans I'd like to see in my Yuletide gift story... )

Thank you again for writing for me- I can’t wait to read it!

- miriad

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MCU Exchange: Dear Creator Letter...

2019-05-08T20:36:03Z

Dear Creator,

Thank you so much for participating and for writing a story for me. I am so excited to read it, you have no idea!!!!

( Here are my somewhat specific requests for this exchange, but they may contain spoilers for Endgame, so putting them behind a cut tag, just in case. )

Thank you so much, Creator! You are the greatest! Can't wait to read it!

- miriad

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Spoilers: Avengers: Endgame and Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes/Stucky Related Meta

2019-04-28T07:54:55Z

This article finally made the time travel stuff in Endgame make sense to me, to a point. THREAD (1/?) SPOILERS AHEAD YO

Avengers: Endgame Internal Logic and Science Explained

( Cut for Spoilers for Avengers Endgame, You have been Warned! )

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Looking for Writers and Artists for Original Anthology

2019-04-21T13:51:07Z

Would anyone here be interested in contributing a short story or novella to a Suffragette themed anthology, aimed for publication next year (100 year anniversary of US women getting the vote, 102nd anniversary for UK women)? The main focus would be romantic stories, or stories with a romantic element, but that's NOT a requirement to participate. The goal would be to release the collection in August 2020 as a self-pubbed e-book (possibly a print collection, depending on length and cost).

I'd like to have stories that are focused on women's rights, voting, feminism, social justice, social rights, reproductive rights and health, LGBTQ rights, etc. and they would NOT have to be historically set. We have plenty of issues with voting, women's rights, minority rights, civil rights, etc. today.

I'd love to get stories focused on women of color and how, despite the 19th amendment being passed, still struggle to vote. Stories about immigrants, children of immigrants, the struggles they face and the fights they've fought, to be citizens, to vote, fit here, too. Trans individuals struggles to have their identity properly reflected on their identification and recognized by the state is huge.

I'd love to have f/f, non-binary, and trans romances, but platonic friendship love stories would be great as well. There is also plenty of room in the anthology for straight romance, m/m, asexual, poly stories, too, as long as there is that focus on the social justice/civil rights element. Just some examples of types of stories, but I know many people here have their own experiences that could drive any number of stories and I'd love to hear them all

Stories would NOT have to be set in the US or the UK, they could be set anywhere and about people in any country and their struggles to vote, to get their rights, etc. Would even accept sci-fi or fantasy stories set in alternate histories, alternate universes, fictional worlds if they told great stories on this theme. The US/UK anniversary is just the foundation on which I started building the idea, everything else is up to the authors who participate.

The goal is to celebrate the historic marker, discuss how far we've come and how far we've left to go, and perhaps open people's eyes up to struggles they aren't familiar with. I'd love to have resources in the book for people to get more involved to help create change, esp. if a story in the anthology moved them to action.

I'd be looking for stories anywhere from 2K - 30K in length. Short stories up to novella length. If you have anything longer, it may still work in the collection, so please reach out.

It would be self-pubbed as an e-book, and possibly a print copy, depending on length of the anthology and cost of printing and shipping (would it make sense, etc.). We could possibly split the thing up into volumes if it gets too long, for printing, should authors want a print copy.

The proceeds would go to a charity focused on voting rights, social justice, etc. Participants in the anthology would vote on the organization they'd like the project to support and we could potentially split the funds between two if need be. I participated in two anthologies like this last year and it was really fun. We raised some money for a good cause, while getting our work and names out there.

If you're interested, let me know. I'd like to have 8-15 participants, or more, since this would be digital, at least at first, and page count isn't really an issue with an e-book. Depending on feedback here, I can open this up to a broader audience of authors to get a full card for the anthology.

If anyone has any concerns about this project, something I'm missing or have overlooked, that I should consider before moving forward, please let me know. I'm open to any/all feedback/criticism, and would like to hear anything that could make this project better or would prevent me from doing something tone deaf or offensive.

Here's a link to the Google Doc to let me know if you're at least interested and we can go from there. Feel free to share this with anyone you think is interested.

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2019 Snowflake Challenge - Day 1

2019-01-02T03:27:23Z

In an attempt to be more active in this space, and because I'm a follower and cesperanza is doing it, I am participating in the 2019 snowflake_challenge here on DW.

Day 1 - Your Happy Place

Talk about your Happy Place—the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane.

I find joy and sanity in reading. It's always been that way for me, even before there was an internet fan community I could connect with. I've found peace in media of all kinds, television and film most especially, but it's been books that I could curl up with under the covers or in the back seat of a car, or out on a boat in the middle of a lake.

I find peace and joy in reading about characters I love, so right now I've been reading far more fanfic than original published fic, as my Goodreads account can attest to, but that's okay.

I recently was diagnosed with both depression and ADHD, and both diagnoses have brought with them a level of obsession and a level of emotional connection to things that is beyond what would be considered normal in most people. That is something I struggle with, trying to find a balance between these fictional worlds and people, and the living, breathing people in my life who would prefer I pay attention to them instead. I've been trying to be better about allowing myself to lose hours and hours in these fictional worlds.

BUT. I do find that when I don't spend at least a little time in these fannish or fictional spaces, I struggle with frustration and impatience, esp. with my four year old, and that's not really fair to her any more than it is when I spend too long on my phone reading. So I need to find that balance where my brain get enough of a hit that I can function well but giving myself time to BE in the real world.

Right now I am almost 100% invested in Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes fic, of all flavors and stripes, and have read some fic in the last year that was better than most books I've read in the past five years. I find the innovation and experimentation of fanfic to be exciting and refreshing, and a place where my own personal creative side can be refreshed and topped off, if you will, as I bask in other writer's brilliance.

I don't know if I could give up reading, of any kind. I think anyone who asked me to would probably get punched in the face and then written out of my life for good. I can live out any fantasy, work through any pain or loss, and have any kind of success a person could dream of. It's the way I let go of my stress and my troubles, at least for a little while, and I can't think of anything else that would fit the bill for this challenge question.

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2018 Writing Round-up

2018-12-30T02:49:42Z

What a year, huh?

This year, I actually had two short stories published in anthologies that were available on amazon, which was pretty cool. I like both stories and once I have the rights back, will be self-pubbing both. One is the start of a series, I think, and the other could be expanded into a full length novel.

A Paranormal Easter Anthology

My story was Upwards Over the Mountain and was about a pair of childhood best friends, one of whom discovers that he's a Selkie and decides to escape an abusive household with his Selkie mother, going to the water. His best friend offers to help, and while they're scrambling to get away, it comes out that they're each in love with the other. Stuff happens, and then they reunite. And there are sexy times.

Our Secret Nook Anthology

My story in this one was is called Some Sunny Day and is about this woman who, as a teenager, discovers that her face keeps appearing in various works of art, going back hundreds of years. But she's not alone- there's a guy in the paintings with her, but she has no idea who he is. She makes it her life's work to figure out what the fuck is going on, by becoming an art historian and by doing all she can to research the models and see if anyone recognizes the guys face. And it turns out, there's a modern version of him, too. They aren't sure why this is happening, or even what it is, but they decide to find out together.

I guess it's kind of a prologue, or a set-up for a longer series, or at least a longer single novel.

It was really important to me to make this happen. I had agreed to turn in stories and I had to do it, or let the rest of the group down, so I did, and in doing so, I think I broke through that barrier in my mind a bit. The one that made me afraid of what would happen if I DID turn in that story and put it out there. If I DID let strangers read my work in unsafe spaces.

Honestly, this was really important for a number of reasons. My story in the first anthology (Paranormal Easter) was the ONLY LGBTQ story in the whole book. Out of 14 authors, I was the only one who had queer characters. Which was kind of scary because I didn't know what that meant about the other author's readerships. Would they turn nasty on Goodreads or in the Amazon reviews? I wasn't sure.

BUT. Only one review specifically mentioned my story, and the reviewer had this to say:

I'll admit, this is the first gay romance I have ever read. I really do think the story was written well.

I also have never read anything about selkies apart from the one discussion of them in book 3 of the Outlander series. That was such a cool thing to have in this anthology! This was a great ending to this collection of paranormal stories!

This was her FIRST gay romance! And she liked it! Doesn't mean she's read more, BUT it does mean that she had a positive experience and walked away from it happy. If nothing else, I hope this means that I am representing LGBTQ+ romance stories in a positive way and am "witnessing" (to co-opt a churchy term) to first time readers in such a manner that they would consider picking up other LGBTQ+ romance books by other authors in the future.

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On the other side of the writing fence, I posted two new fanfic stories, the first I'd finished and posted since 2013. The first was my New Year's Resolution story, to get me back in the good graces of Yuletide. The second was a gift as part of the DC/MCU Bingo Bang gift exchange. It's my first posted Stucky story, ever. It terrifies me, but I still like it.

Title: Getting There The Hard Way
Pairings: Delia/Narrator (Long Time Gone)
Warnings: Second Person POV, in case that's an issue.
Rating: Hard R, maaaaybe NC-17
Word Count: 3431
Notes:I loved the idea that the Dixie Chick's cover of Long Time Gone wasn't a gender flip, and what that would mean about the characters in the story. I know the original ask was for more about Delia but this was what anted to come out of me. It's not quite what you asked for, NYCScribbler, but I hope you like it.

Thank you so, so much to Deisderium, who did super fast beta work and some hand-holding for me. I appreciate your help so very much!

This is marked "Explicit" but I don't know how explicit it really is. I just wasn't sure if Mature was strong enough, lol. This is also the first f/f story I've ever finished, and certainly the first I've posted. I enjoyed it a lot and am looking to writing more. We need more f/f in the world, and I'm glad I finally tried writing it and didn't totally fail at it.

Summary: She’s always had standards. Why she was ever with you is beyond your comprehension, honestly.

So, you leave. You take your savings, meager as they are, and you meander your way up towards Nashville, in the Ford, the ghost of Delia in the back, staring at you as you ride further and further away from what you think you hate, but which holds so many people you love.

Title: can't see the forest for the trees
Pairings: Bucky/Steve, Clint/Natasha (offscreen)
Warnings: Discussion of a car accident involving hitting some deer, some injuries suffered by Steve and Bucky, but nothing too gory.
Rating: Teen and Up
Word Count: 6466
Notes:This was written for Deb Walsh as part of the DC/Marvel Bingo Exchange, and this fulfills two squares, and maybe a third if you squint, that Deb asked for:

Fake/pretend relationship
Snowflake
Snowed in

Summary: "I've got a plan," Buck said about point four seconds later, short enough for Steve to know that he'd been thinking about it the whole time he'd been staring at Steve. How he'd been a spy, Steve would never know.

"Oh, yeah?" Steve asked, not sure he wanted to know what kind of crazy idea Buck had come up with, having been the focus of a number of other Bucky plans over the course of their friendship and sometimes he'd ended up with ripped shirts and needing to say a few Hail Mary's. Other times, he'd ended up with a bloody nose and an asthma attack due to needing to run for his life.

"What if you tell her you're dating someone already, you know? Like, secretly. Quietly."

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OMG. So, there's that. WHEW.

I have a number of projects in the pipeline for 2019, and since I've been officially diagnosed with ADHD and am now properly medicated, I have become efficient and prolific in a way I haven't ever seen. I am either going to kick serious ass or become that stereotypical writer in all those movies, where I go crazy and have an affair with some young co-ed in order to deal with all this energy and creative impulses. I may just have to pretend that my husband IS a young co-ed, and make that work, lol.

Here's to 2019 and all that it has to bring. I'm ready, you fucker, so let's rock'n'roll.

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FIC REC - Star Wars - The Force Awakens

2018-09-26T13:19:56Z

YOU GUYS.

YOU GUYS.

I was made aware of this story by creeping on someone's bookmark list in AO3, and it is the greatest thing, possibly ever.

I say this, knowing what it actually means to say this: this is Star Wars' "Freedom's Just Another Word for Nothing Left To Lose".

I KNOW, RIGHT?

It is that fucking good, and has that kind of weight. I want everyone to read it and come back and talk to me about it forever. FOREVER.

Title: have you heard
Author: peradi
Pairing: Poe/Finn, Poe/Finn/Rey
Summary:
"I heard FN-2187 was a Stormtrooper."
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Finn sparks a revolution.

If you've read this, or if you read this because of this rec and you love it, and want to chat about it, PLEASE COME BACK HERE AND TALK TO ME.

*cough*

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H50 Season Finale (Spoilers)

2016-05-17T20:09:39Z

Does anyone here still watch Hawaii Five-0 anymore?

Because, they aren't even TRYING to pretend that they aren't just filming fanfic.

( Cut for Hawaii Five-0 6x25 Spoilers )

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miriad @ 2016-04-19T10:19:00

2016-04-19T17:12:45Z

I'm still working to get better at updating here, mostly to get thoughts on paper, and to interact with all the folks that I've enjoyed being with for so long.

So, here we go.

1. Little Bear

( Cut for baby talk and photos. )

2. I'm amazed at how much Facebook, Tumblr, and Twitter have started to affect me. I find myself scrolling through my DW and LJ feeds, wanting to click a "Like" or "Love" button and there isn't one.

This isn't a bad thing, per se. I have found that instead, I am commenting, even if it's just a stupid little "I love it!".

But, it is weird to see how much my interactions online and my expectations for social media interactions have changed as I have moved away from LJ and DW as my main platforms for online interaction.

3. HAMILTON.

JFC HAMILTON.

That is all.

4. I planted my first garden at the new house.

( Gardening Geekout and Photos )

( Cut for sadness about cats. )

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Trying to be more regular, maybe I need more fiber

2016-03-15T02:13:47Z

Random list of things:

1. People who bring their dogs EVERYWHERE and never check with other people, including the people who own/live in the house where they are bringing the dog, just drive me fucking CRAZY.

It's not the dog, really. It's the assumption that the person you're visiting doesn't mind the dog, or doesn't have a reason to not want the dog there.

And then they give you guilt trips if you say something, like saying they'll leave the dog in the car. In 0 degree weather.

Look, I'm an asshole, but I'm not that big of an asshole.

My sister-in-law has brought her dog over to our house twice, uninvited, when we had just bought the house, and when she did, the dog shit on our NEW CARPET both times.

FLAMES. FROM THE SIDE OF MY FACE.

( Cut for discussion of a mildly(?) violent dog and mental illness that some might want to skip. )

2. Our daycare provider is an in-home daycare and she is AMAZING.

However, she is in late middle age and very heavy, and she tripped and fell at church last weekend, breaking her femur. She's doing well- they put in a rod and screws, and she was able to stand on it the Tuesday after the break. She's planning to go back to work, with the help of a gaggle of other ladies to help her and I am okay with that, as I trust her judgement about who she would let around my kid.

That said, we have had a hell of a time trying to find alternative childcare. We are getting there, and will be putting Little Bear and her cousin in a daycare that is much larger than they are used to but is able to accommodate us for the short term (they are waiving their sign-up fee, as we are only planning on 2-3 weeks, although I know that it could go longer than that).

I have a lot more empathy for the other parents that I work with that had to work from home or take days off when we had all the terrible weather the last two winters, because this shit is not easy and I HAVE a loving, committed partner to help out.

Single parents, you fucking ROCK. SO HARD. No one gives you the credit you deserve for getting shit done, but you so, so deserve it.

3. I signed up for Cherry Adair's Finish the Damn Book.

The contest starts in April, and runs for 9 months. Like NaNo, you are supposed to start with something completely new for the competition (in which you are really only completing with your self).

I'm excited. But then again, I ALWAYS say that. I can start things, but have a really difficult time finishing things. Cherry is a bit of a personality, so I'm hoping that this is the kick in the pants I need.

4. Has anyone read Shonda Rhimes' The Year of Yes? I'm curious to know what people think about it. I'm just starting the audiobook and am hoping for wonderful things.

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Captain America

2016-03-11T04:45:15Z

I'd like to discuss the new Captain America: Civil War trailer. Here, take a gander, I'll wait.

( I could do this all day... (cut for spoilers of the new CA:CW trailer, and movies already released in the MCU) )

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Mostly X-Files.

2016-03-10T04:40:18Z

I've been meaning to write about both the new Star Wars movie and the new X-Files series, but I'm not sure what to say.

I LOVED Star Wars: The Force Awakens. No spoilers, but it was everything I had hoped for and more. And I am very happy to see Star Wars fandom growing and expanding.

Not a fan of all the Kylo Ren stuff, because blech, but all those conversations are worth having.

X-Files.

Whoo boy.

( Dear Diary, My heart LEAPT when Agent Scully suggested spontaneous human combustion... )

I've been making mix tapes for my current shows, and I've been recreating mix tapes that I made back in the day for my old school loves that are coming back. It's been fun to listen to all the song that were so CLEARLY about MSR stuff.

Like, I can associate almost every Roxette song with Mulder and Scully. LISTEN TO YOUR HEART, SCULLY, WHEN HE'S CALLING TO YOU!

I am ridiculous.

( Cut for discussion of dental work, because reasons. )

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2016 Reading Goals - Updated 05/02/16

2016-02-04T00:09:33Z

After Little Bear was born, November 2014, I found myself unable to finish reading an actual book. I have started many, finished few. I did read a lot of fic, mostly because it was easy to do on my phone. Any books i have finished have been because I have it as an e-book on my phone. This is frustrating because my home is filled with physical books that I have failed to read, mostly because I do a lot of reading, in the dark, which Little Bear sleeps on me/near me/whatever.

Now that Little Bear is a bit older, and I've cleared out some of the cobwebs, I am finding a renewed vigor behind my reading.

I've made a few reading goals for myself for the year. I'd like to use this post to keep track of everything.

1. Total books read over the course of the year: goal is 50+

01/10/16 - The Widow - Fiona Barton
01/20/16 - What Was Mine - Helen Klein Ross - Review on Goodreads, with Spoilers
01/24/16 - Steal Like an Artist - 10 Things No One Told You About Being a Creative - Austin Kleon
02/02/16 - Honeymoon - James Patterson

ETA:
02/22/16 - I know How She Does It: How Successful Women Make the Most of Their Time - Laura Vanderkam
03/02/16 - Show Your Work!: 10 Ways to Share Your Creativity and Get Discovered - Austin Kleon
03/22/16 - Out of Control - Suzanne Brockmann
03/23/16 - Year of Yes: How to Dance It Out, Stand In the Sun and Be Your Own Person - Shonda Rhimes
04/07/16 - The Racketeer - John Grisham Review on Goodreads, with Spoilers
04/18/16 - Every Heart a Doorway - Seanan McGuire
04/29/16 - Level Up Your Life" How to Unlock Adventure and Happiness by Becoming the Hero of Your Own Story - Steve Kamb

2. Read 5 books by African American authors during Feb./Black History Month.
I know this is a bit of a cliche, but there are so many great posts about Black authors, so many fantastic rec lists, that it's a great time to not only get excited about books I may not have heard of or had lost track of in my massive to read list, but to actually act on that excitement and read the fucking books!

After the image of Octavia Butler's notebook went viral over the past few weeks, I am excited to read some of her work, especially since a number of her books are available on Scribd, which I currently have a membership to.

NOTE: I failed this one. However, I am working through the back-list of Beverly Jenkins right now, so I feel less terrible about failing. I should be reading authors of color, and of different religions and genders than I all year long, anyway.

ETA:
03/23/16 - Year of Yes: How to Dance It Out, Stand In the Sun and Be Your Own Person - Shonda Rhimes

3. Read 12 personal or professional growth books
The goal is to read one per month and keep the inspiration going all year.

01/24/16 - Steal Like an Artist - 10 Things No One Told You About Being a Creative - Austin Kleon

ETA:
02/22/16 - I know How She Does It: How Successful Women Make the Most of Their Time - Laura Vanderkam
03/02/16 - Show Your Work!: 10 Ways to Share Your Creativity and Get Discovered - Austin Kleon
03/23/16 - Year of Yes: How to Dance It Out, Stand In the Sun and Be Your Own Person - Shonda Rhimes
04/29/16 - Level Up Your Life" How to Unlock Adventure and Happiness by Becoming the Hero of Your Own Story - Steve Kamb

I'm on Goodreads, so if anyone wants to join me there, that would be awesome.

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miriad @ 2015-09-29T23:40:00

2015-09-30T03:49:29Z

The past few weeks, I have had all these FEELINGS. I've wanted to write out all these thoughts and comments and spill it all out on the page, but I realized that of all the current social media I was using, none of them were appropriate for those feelings/comments/etc.

I had this profound sense of loss of what I had once found here and on LJ, born from the combination of people moving to new and different (but not better) platforms and modes of communication, and because I find it difficult to post to DW or LJ from the tiny screen and weird keyboard of my phone.

I was reminded that while many people have moved on to tumblr and twitter, there are still lots of folks here, talking, writing, communicating, and FEELING together in a relatively safe space (as safe as one can get on the internet and still be SOCIAL with your MEDIA), and I knew that I had to come back.

Since the last time I posted here, I have had a baby and purchased a house. That's a lot of major change that I didn't really write about, and I really should have.

I'm struggling with anxiety, some of which I had before the baby, and a lot of which has been exacerbated by the hormones related to the baby. I feel like I was able to work through a lot of that anxiety before because I was writing here, and getting it on the page, or working through all my feelings while talking about Sam and Dean, or John and Rodney.

I need this, even if I end up talking to myself. I miss you all, those still here and those already gone. I miss your wit, your humor, the sorrows you shared and the joys you let us live vicariously through you. My hope is that perhaps I am not the only one who has felt this urge, this need to come back and start writing here again.

One can always, always hope.

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Hemlock Grove

2014-08-03T22:31:48Z

Bear decided he wanted to start watching Hemlock Grove today, so we watched the first two episodes before I needed a nap (pregnancy + migraines = no bueno).

I'm curious what others think of the show. At this point, I am intrigued by the premise (as far as I understand it so far), but I have not really connected with any characters in the way that I have with other shows.

I am wondering about how the influence of someone like Eli Roth will affect both what appears on the show and how I choose to embrace it.

The gothic horror nature of the story has me going back and forth.

In short, I'm not sure about it, although I will continue forward for a few more episodes and see if anything changes.

What say you, friends? Anyone else watching this one?

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miriad @ 2013-12-29T18:25:00

2013-12-29T23:28:38Z

GetYourWordsOut: Year Six!
Pledges & Requirements | GYWO.net

Doing this again this year. Making the same insane pledge, despite not yet making it, because damnit, changing my pledge amount feels like giving up. ;)

Anyone planning to join me? There are multiple pledge levels:

•150K words, the Modest level, approximately 12.5K words/month, 411 words/day
•200K words, the Basic level, approximately 16.6K words/month, 548 words/day
•250K words, the Moderate level, approximately 20.8K words/month, 685 words/day
•300K words, the Difficult level, approximately 25.0K words/month, 822 words/day
•350K words, the Insane level, approximately 29.1K words/month, 959 words/day
•500K words, the Ludicrous level, approximately 41.6K words/month, 1,370 words/day

You can write original work, fanfic, whatever. Anyone? Bueller?

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